Journal: 30th June 2022

6:50am. Wanting to go back to sleep, as if it was a world, as if it was home, as if I belonged there. You wake up, and the complexities of life flood your being. You are now this person with complexities. I was a different person in sleep, in dream – who was I in between dreams, when the me, the my, and the I were not present? Is that what death is like, the space in between dreams? Is that what life is like, a dream sandwiched with a nothingness full of life, full of potential? Surely that’s nothing to be afraid of. It isn’t. Death isn’t a thing to fear. Learn to let go now, learn not to cling to a future that is not yours, to a future that doesn’t exist, that is not a thing – that is only an abstract in your mind, a projection motivated by a desire, a wanting, of both body and mind. Death is painful for those who cling to our bodies, who include us in their mind-made future. Grief is pain of loss for the living who have not yet learned that death is part of the ride and is to be embraced. Only through embracing death can we fully embrace life.